“The future is completely open, and we are writing it moment to moment.” ~Pema Chodron
Statistically, a lot of people have given up on their resolutions by now. The definition of a resolution is “a firm decision to do or not to do something.”
When I examine the firm decisions I’ve made, I can’t help but notice that we all have the same lists. Why is that?
Could it be that the same media, the same books, and the same friends have written all of our lists? I’m not making a value judgment of these shared desires—I just find it interesting that we all seem to feel the need to include so many of them.
So now I find myself questioning where my resolutions and intentions are based. Did they come from some other source, or do they reflect my heart’s desires?
I hadn’t actually made any resolutions for 2011, but for the sake of exploring this idea, I got out a notebook and pen and began writing.
I looked down and saw—yes, you guessed it—that I had written what appeared to be the universal generic resolution list:exercise more, eat more healthy foods, meditate daily, lose weight, call my mother, etc., etc., etc..
And although all these desires are good—in fact, they are wonderful and I truly would like them in my life—I was surprised that I felt no real energy reading the list.
It just felt like another list among hundreds, written and then forgotten. Of course I would have issues keeping these decisions. They held no passion, no energy for me at this moment. They were just lots of words on a piece of paper.
I’m beginning to understand that for an intention, a resolution, even an affirmation to really rock my boat, to create such excitement that keeping it isn’t a challenge, it has to be authentic. Authentic for me.
Not from the heartfelt list provided by Oprah or even from my favorite blog. Not from what the media tells me I need to change. Not from what my head tells me I need to change. It needs to bubble up from that place inside that holds me.
To write my new list, I’d have to consider what I really want in my life—what would thrill me and make me take a deep happy breath.
It’s not a big heavy bag of shouldsbut instead the excitement of coulds.
As I started writing, I was surprised by the first thing I listed on the to-do side: Smile more.
I’m a pretty happy person and I smile a lot, so I let myself feel what this meant. And what I felt was that I wanted to make a difference in other people’s lives, and a quick entry point to this is smiling at people.
I love it when someone unexpectedly smiles at me. Who doesn’t?
I could see how this “resolution” would not be burdensome. It came from my heart. It made me feel happy, and it would continue to. Every time I practiced it, it would easily become more entrenched. This is how authenticity feels.
I felt so successful with this that I decided to jump over to the not-do side of my list. Again, I needed to go deeply inside if I wanted an honest answer.
The answer came so quickly that it was a bit of a surprise: I will be happier if I spend less time in front of my computer.
I work from my home and fortunately, I have a choice. Often I just hang out with my best friend Mac because I’m bored and haven’t practiced other choices.
To make this something fun for me, I’ve decided to make a “Yes” list—yes to what I want to have in my life right now.
The computer time decision is getting listed as: Pick something fun to do when I am bored and do it.
I will love keeping that resolution. I already have a list of things I could do: Go outside and watch the hummingbirds, read a book, pretend bowling on my Wii (my total fav!). I just need to notice when I am lurking around Facebook because I have nothing else to do.
These were my entry-level steps to creating an authentic list of resolutions. I delved a bit deeper and came up with more that felt full of life for me. Next came: I will really listen to my husband.
Sounds funny, but we have been together 30 years and it’s easy to get into the habit of just assuming I know what he is saying. I want to really hear him and because this comes from such a true place, instead of feeling the usual “ugh” of change, I feel such expansiveness. I am excited to be more connected.
Some of my other entries are:
As you can see, my list has become very personal, but also very doable.
I don’t think that I will need tools or tips to keep these desires. They are from my truest self, and experiencing them isn’t’ a burden. It feels wonderful!
This is the first time in my life that the word “resolution” has not felt like a gift wrapped in guilt, in shame, in fear.
And who knows, perhaps by picking fun things to do when I am bored, I will naturally start to exercise more. Doesn’t eating papayas equate to eating healthier foods? Perhaps I have not thrown out the generic list of universal resolutions; I have just reframed it in my own terms, from my own heart.
If this resonates with you, I urge you to throw out all previous lists and make a fresh start from your heart.
Who knows what exciting “firm decision” is just waiting to be set free.
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